Sometimes all you have to do is to be present in life

Yesterday I got an invitation from my secondary classmates
saying that they were going back to alma mater for a photoshooting session
Just the thought of that makes me feel terribly sick
like I feel there are lots of bad memories attached to the past years
that I have been trampled crumbled over the rocks and stones in my journal
yet I didn't really try to sort things out or having keeping tracks of all my thoughts and all my energy
instead, trying to occupy my soul with one things and another that
keeps me busy rather than actually doing things to clear out what is happening
and drawing necessary conclusions from the past and get on with life.
To live life but not to make unwanted connections with the past,
in the face of doubts and fear, never let it overwhelm you,
talk to yourself, All is well,
and God would be there to listen and back you all.
Sometimes all you have to do is just be present.