I swear

I swear to God
Even though I haven't done this for long
I want a functional family where every member gives me warm and love
I swear.
I really want that empathy, love, respect, whatever you call it.
I have been desperately thirsty for it yet it has always been missing.
No matter how hard I do at school, you can't see it.
No matter how hurtful I feel among peers, you didn't feel it.
No matter how I hate the enemies, you didn't know it.
And now I am really to get my own life, you didn't understand it.