I have to prove you are wrong

That's enough, all the external expectation. All the teachers, doctors, consultants are giving me a bullshit on how I should discipline or behave (because that's the way the society runs) but while I have been trying to hide my explosive emotions inside. All I have in head is " Why can't adult just listen more? " You should go to the schools in Denmark/Sweden and like what my cousin did, they came there with a scholarship and they graduate with a master and then start the exchange to bla bla bla again and get a PHD. For me just the thought of it gives me personal head disorder. That's when I come to realise I need to scream
I don't give a fuck about my degree certification, all I want is chase my artistic dream, broaden my experience and horizon. I need to escape home and go to a new creative land (and just to live interesting people )where I find innovation and creativity everyday.
Paint and do what I like, neglecting what others think of me.
As they don't KNOW me.
Miss Ng has been telling me that my "noble mistress" does not fit to live in another country,
but I clearly know that's the only chance for me to prove myself right and to get rid of drugs and medication and focus on academics and my daily social life. Asian and Westerners are different I guess but I am ready.