I think I am a bit sensitive. Should I blame facebook for stirring up all the bitterness and jealousy?

Oversaw* my friend (actually I don't know her well) 's status with a rather good looking foreigner. So out of curiousity I  clicked the name tag. Surprised/ disappointed to find out the foriegn guy is actually not mistaken. He truly exists. I was like wtf, but the girl itself is a bit chubby and she's not particularly ..hot or that very popular type. But then I tried to imagine all that relationship won't last long (omg thinking back I am so easy to envy others...) Though I found out they were in relationship publicly and they have some nice time together and the only word to describe is sweet. But my jealousy is burning me and never letting me go of the inferiority that I myself attached to. All the negatives like my body shape, depressive thoughts seem to be some of the list that I regularly blame myself. What am I actually doing when others are enjoying their youth? Enjoying relationships and squendering on their playfulness to all the newly met friends. While I was spending quite so time meeting random travellers from everywhere. Sounds like this plan doesn't work. And my plan of pushing through all the limits during my TP sounds unimportant to my self-improvement things. Though I just finished the roughly lesson plan. While the PP WS and reader WS just couldn't wait. The desire to shout out my name loud just can't be stopped. Stop yelling at meeee

*Journal on dream job for my dear students
*Filming project/ strangers project