A little graveyard

Just when I was thinking about which way I am heading,
yup- I was under this swirl of thoughts after a friend of mine's advice.
Deep inside my heart I am longing to try out some visual arts, photography and to visualize my pathway as a true artist.
Deep in my heart I know it would some how be very vulnerable when you open yourself to the world around you, sometimes you get to know good people, or you are too openly attracted to the frame and how it sounds like.
Like deep inside you feel others have expectation on you,
but most often you have a higher expectation on yourself.
Loosen a bit and just follow your heart.
It somehow already tells me what to do.
No more fantasy dwelling
Doing one thing that scares you most everyday, yet I missed that opportunity to just say hi to my university professor whom I met in Wollongong. A very childish side of me appears that was responding that I hate somebody because they did not give attention to me. But, is it worth holding the grudge?
Bye bye negative Mendy